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我要怎么增加我的自信心呢？ 我老师说我被动，我并不否认，要怎么办呢？


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I'm back

Had tour performance with National Youth Orchestra started from 2nd of may (Genting), 9th of may (Ipoh), 16th of may (Johor) and 23th of may (Kuantan). Tiring and fun... :) outting to waterfall (Ipoh) and beach (Kuantan). will upload photos soon! :D

but now i need to concentrate on my final!!! NEXT MONDAY is the day!!!!!!!

Vivaldi - Violin Concerto Op.3, No. 12 in E Major, RV 265

TOMORROW!!

I'll have a meeting with production stage manager, but my own stage manager might not available tomorrow, because his mom is in hospital, really pity to him. of course i'm not forcing him to attend the meeting... i'm just not happy with his way, he didn't pick up my phone call and not even reply my message. fine! Luckily my friend told me his situation... but anyway, my friends and i (uda, bella, rabiatul and me) will deal trough with the production stage manager. hehe :) i'm glad they still join this final project :D thanks to OASIS production! miss them a lot...

challenges

Although I passed up my report, but I still need time to do practices with my colleagues.

I had main problem... i understand how busy are my players, sorry to say that i'm worry about songs! But at least i've done 2 solo songs, 1 trio (hopefully my player will remember what i have done today). for my another 2 songs i haven't run through yet... especially my duet song, i'm still rushing all those semiquavers, i hate that!!

I told my teacher about that matter, he said i need to really relax while i play that particular parts, what i noticed my hand just can't control and my mental was out of my mind! how? how? how? my teacher advised me to get relax and concentrate on my RH wrist, the movement!!! haiz... i can overcome this matter soon!!! :D

老实说我真的对学院的制度已经绝望了。我不晓得他们真的有在办事吗？难道通知老师真的这么难吗？星期三我告知我的报告老师我的考试会在6月1日举办，我老师说她完全不知情她也说下午时间她会在另间学院教课。这又是另一个大问题， 这也说明我的考试只有一个监考老师。我已经心灰意冷，有或无，我也无所谓. I don't care what will happen, i will do the best.

Thank god!!!

Hahaha... my exam date is 22.07.2009 (wed), although it's 2 months later, but i will work hard to archive my goal!!!! I won't fail myself!!!!!!! WISH ME!! :D

Currently really busy on my final, especially on my 'reports'. I really fed up what the management did to us, change without informing students, just put the notice on the board... do you really think all students will APPEAR in college? luckily my friend told me about this, and i did the right thing.:D last thursday hea told us to do 6 copies, and i got the latest info, 1 copy with report and master scores, 1 copy ONLY report, and 3 master scores. if my friend didn't let me know... I WILL DO 6 COPIES with all master scores and reports...

this is my final and last work to do in college... really need EXTRA rest after that!!! I DON'T CARE... don't ever bother me and disturb me... let me be, i want my own time!!! :D

NERVOUS!!!!

I just got a msg about my violin exam date... I don't know yet because my friend is checking for me!!! I really hope it's in july!!! HELP ME!!!

无可理喻?

我该真么办?这又不是那又不是..... 真的是这么难搞吗?他们都已经知道我的问题但他们安排下午的时间.真的是要我的命吗？我就要快要发疯了!!!!!!!!! 将会发生什么事呢？ 我不敢想象....只能‘期待’... 明天会更好!!! :D
难到真的不能妥协吗?不能迁就吗?我要怎么做?安排时间的不是我我只能依照他们所安排的,但不可以啊!!!!!!!!!!!!

what can i do? give me some clues...
what should i do????? do nothing? i don't think so... ask them to change? i tried!!! but they just denied me... told me that CAN'T BE CHANGE!!! Argue with them?? i'm patient enough to treat them.... i'm almost lost control!!!! Don't MAKE ME EXPLODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't care... i'll keep this on... no matter how i'll do the best!!!

是时候了!

两个月后我将会自由!!! 自由!! 自由!! 自由!! 虽然如此,在这两个月我必须专心于我的毕业考试, 我一定做到最最最最最棒!!!

我先说说六月份我的行程. 如果没有意外, 六月中我将会和我的好姐妹去新加坡, 第一去旅游, 第二我也可以去esplanade hall 寻找我的音乐乐谱机资料. 哈哈! 只是想想我就非常兴奋!!! 哈哈哈哈哈哈!! 八月份我将会于我校的好朋友去丁嘉楼参加华乐独奏赛. 但愿能够克服我的弱点, stage fright!!! :D

不但如此, 我将会回返学校继续我的degree学业. :D 我当然有想过外国留学,但.... 这一切我会非常努力争取!!! 呵呵... :D

WHAT THE HELL!!!?!??!?!?

我很讨厌不公平的对待!!! 既然已公开让大家争取但他已经做了决定, 还有让有关人士了解所有情况. 为什么不让大家得到公平的竞争?

STUPID

i'm really breakdown.
I couldn't thinked, i just want to be alone! WHAT AM I DOING NOW? WHY I CAN'T ARCHIVE what i wish to? I'm trying hard to do my best... but i just can't overcome my stress.. i don't want to see anyone... i just wanna eat!!!!

SLIM DOWN!!

Haha... slim! slim! slim!
i don't know how many times i did this statement, but i'm still really working on it!!!
btw.. this are some of the slimming information :)

http://www.ssnn.net/

http://lady.qq.com/diet/diet.htm

http://fitness.39.net/

http://www.ssnn.net/html/yundongjianfei/

:) all these info are in chinese characters... Enjoy!!
WORK HARD WORK HARD ON SLIMMING PROGRAM!!!!!

I'll be free after june!!! :) Wish me all the best!

Miss my FREE DAYS!

I was busy since begin the early of year... performance, classes, assignments, arrangement, PRACTICES!! On monday, got to do arrangement and do peta report in the morning, half of the day I'm just concentrating on these 2 important matters, after that i got to go to college for instrumental class till night. on tuesday, i've violin class in the afternoon, morning session i still doing the same thing as monday's. Wednesday!!! THIS IS THE MOST BUSY DAY! morning till night I'm rushing all the way, in the afternoon i've report class, after that i got to rush to kepong for composition class... :) I'm really appreciate with my teacher, she helps me a lots on my arrangement. after the class i got to rush back to college for my instrumental class... Thursday, i'm BUSY all the day. The only free day is friday... :) Heheh...

I got to work out on my FINAL!!!!

REALLY BAD LUCK!

I just can't imagine this could happen to me!!!

If you got a phone from stranger, of course you'll answer, sorry i'm not the person you are looking for. But today, i really realized some people are CRAZY!!!! He admitted he was the person I was looking for, and i was cheated by him!!! I've serious matters got to be confirm, AND HE.... HE.... PLAY AROUND WITH ME??!?!?!??!!??!?!?!? Really Sucks!!!

Don't let me to find 'YOU' out, or else I'll knock your head, or smash you to pieces!!!! I don't care who you are, please please out of my sight!!!!!

Do I get hurt?

I met one of my long lost friend... Erm, he was one of my admire guy la. :) hahaha While we were having conversation, I asked him to help me up for something la, then he said that he got girlfriend already. Erm... At that moment, i didn't feel anything! Honestly, NOTHING!! I just treat him as normal friend, I don't know how this can be happen, because I was really really admire him last time :)

Anyway, I DIDN'T get hurt!! hahahha

Gonna to be upload!

My internet connection is SUCK!!!! I can't upload my photos in facebook..... Haiz...

Will upload some photos...

01.02.2009, had gathering with secondary school friends! Really miss them.... Although we are staying in kl, but we didn't contact each other almost 4 to 5 years!! Really miss those days in school... :) We talked a lot and LAUGH all the time!! TAKE GOOD CARE MY FRIENDS!!! :)

CHinese New Year

In early of January, I was busy on my functions in KLCC. I got to 'visit' KLCC at least once a week. This was mentally tiring!!! Although I was rushing all the way back home and rush to other places, but I'm still glad that I'm BUSY NOW!! (I'm freaky crazy) At least I'm improved on my performing, I hope that I didn't occur problems to my dearest friend. I'll work hard on my performing skills, trust me!

At the same time, I've some classes and meeting in college. I didn't spend much time in college, I'm moody going there while I was busy on my every single matters. I'm sorry to all my lecturers and friends if i did wrong to you.

On the first day of chinese new year, I woke up early around 0430, and prepare myself for the MHI performance at TV3. This was an opportunity to us to get exposure for ourselves :) For me, I was not satisfied on the performance, because we were not prepared at all, because we were not use with the live performance, and we lost our cue!! :) At least we gone trough it! :) At the same time we met one artist, Winnie Kok. We took some photos with her, she is friendly to us. Nice to meet her! After the rehearsal, we had our BREAKFAST!! hahaha... I was hungry during the performance. We decided to do a rehearsal at my friend's place, mostly of the members were late as usual! But mostly who attended the performance in the morning were exhausted, even me, my 'battery' was getting low. Right after the rehearsal, i decided to go my friend's place to stay a night for the next day performance at tv3.

On the next day, as usual, we got to reach tv3 at 0630, and prepare ourselves before the program started. My family were there, just because right after the performance, i got to rush to my grandma's place. :) I almost faint during the performance, because i didn't sleep much at my friend's place. haiz... :(

That was my busy and enjoyable chinese new year! :)

To all my friends, Happy CNY and gain lots of money money!!! hehehe

Hard Time!

After 2 weeks rest, new semester has begun. Frankly speaking, I'm not in the mood of attend classes, doing assignments. Erm.. I can say I dislike go to college anymore, not prepared at all. I went to collage around 1.00pm, and those officers said I've to wait till 2.00pm to do the registration. What can i do? I went to library to grab some books and magazines. I reached the hall around 2.00++pm, I waited for 2 hours just queueing the line for the registration. What can I say?? Speechless!!

I attended instrumental class yesterday with my teacher, we shared a lot, about our hard times, 'speechlesses' and other. I released lots of my 怨气... :) Anyway, I'm planning for my final. I HOPE IT CAN GO WELL!! I put lots of efforts on it... :D

Wish me luck... :)

^ 2009 ^

Targets:

1. PETA Final in June 2009 (I'm worried about it! But I'm sure i can do it!)

2. Violin Examination grade 8 (I really do hope I can do well in this examination!)

3. SLIM DOWN till around 45kg (I know I put my hope too high... But i have confident to achieve)

4. Be more confident, OPEN MINDED and not too stubborn!!

5. I hope I can get in to a relation! (haiz... I'm getting old already...)

6. DO MY BEST ON ANYTHING!! Don't give up easily!!

I'll update soon for my latest targets!! Haha... :)

Wish me all the best!