MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! :D

Merry christmast to all of you! :D
I supposed to attend one christmas party, at last i wasn't there, and i watched one movie, SHERLOCK HOMLET!! :) cheers!~

last week was my hectic week, i didn't have enough sleep AT ALL!! Rush for assignment, and some more i need to prepare myself for that music camp. At last i managed to complete both tasks! hahaha :D

from now onwards i don't want to think negative! think positive! I THINK OF VACATIONS!!!! :D I want to travel alone! :D heheheh

I will not think about my coming semester, i know it will be a disaster to me! I'm not going to suffer myself...

Isn't she lovely, by stevie wonder

:D Cheers!

Jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way!!!

Happy New Year!!!

New year has come, I need to prepare myself for a brand new ME! I just finally get myself off from all my programs (Exams, music camp, assignments), but i still have some functions till 25th of Dec. Before that I plan to watch a concert on christmas day (25th of dec), due to my friends informed me that i'll have function on 25th!!! too bad... I can't watch that performance :(

But then... i still have another plan after my functions :) I will outstation for few days right after christmas!! :D where will i go? :) i will upload my photos when i reach kl :D

In this month i joined 2 big events, a performance (5th of dec) and a music camp (17th-20th of dec) :D

Erm... seems like my connection is having problem again... can't upload photos yet :(

I'M FREE!!!

I've done with my theory exams!!! hahaha.. but still i have one more exam on wed.....
Had chinese orchestra performance at klang, it was average... but still i felt released!
In this whole week, i was just studying and memorizing HARDLY! Overall, I was satisfied with all my theory exams, did pretty well :D

What's my plan next in this month? :D
Working, practice and do some research about my plan to taiwan next year. :) (hopefully can meka it!:D)
and also
I might outstation to.... No where yet!:D HAHAH....

In this month, i will use my time WISELY especially thinking of my future planning... and also my gain my knowledges... :D

before doing these, I will watch 2012 TOMORROW!!!!

Exam :D

Cool! I did 2 EXAMS, Japanese and English... Satisfied with my answering :D

Tuesday 01.12.2009 - Pengajian Budaya

Wednesday 02.12.2009 - Music Theory

Friday 04.12.2009 - Music History

Wednesday 09.12.2009 - Ear training

After these exams.. I will be FREE!!
I will work hard to accomplish all exams!!!! :D I CAN DO IT!!!

Ganbatte Kudasai to all my friends! :D
Cheers!

休息是让自己能走得更远? Busy? pretend busy?

Haha.. i found that my blog title is getting sarcastic :D I think it is because i'm still stuck in my stress and problems that I can't find solution... But nevermind, i will find my solution in this coming semester break.

What made me so busy enough, till i don't have time to update my blog? What i can say, busy running here and there... busy on my work, assignments, coming theory exams. The only exam i've settled was my practical exam. My practical exam was pretty good, although i didn't have much time to practice, but i'm satisfied :D

For the other exams... What can i say? No confident? or no mood to study? haha.. right now is around 3.35am, and i'm still online and update my lonely blog... :D I shouldn't online, i should study my Japanese, Budaya, theory etc....

I still remember one of my friends told me, 休息是让自己能走得更远 Do you agree?
Or i should totally REST?
Seriously, I don't have much free time to hang out with friends, to yamcha or shopping... But... Do i enjoy my busy life? with no TARGET? hehe :D

this is the question i need to think about it, and I should find out the solution before i get explode! :D

I need to stay away from my PC today onwards.. no MSN, no YM, no FACEBOOK, no BLOGGING!

STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!!

my limit?

Can i overcome my limit? or i need to give up? Should i take agressive action? or let it be?
or USE them :D haha (EVIL SMILE)

What are my problems now? do i know my problems? or i cover and don't want to admit my problem? or I 'know' my problems?

trust?

信不信是一杀那的瞬间。
当我相信了，我就会相信他/她。当我不相信了，我会毫不犹豫不会选择相信他/她。

对我而言，信用是非常重要，而且我也是容易相信他人，往往朋友都会取笑我为什么这么地容易相信人，但这是我的本性:D

然而，我会照顾自己，让自己好过！

RELEASE TENSION SONG LIST!!! :D

for those who have 烦恼, this is a best song to SCREAM OUT!!!! :D By Jacky Cheung :D

Who wants to 'FLY', listen to this song!!!!! FLY AS HIGH AS POSSIBLE!!!! By 飞儿乐团

WHO WANTS TO GET HIGH FOR 3 DAYS 3 NIGHTS, SING THIS!!! :D by A-Mei

improvement?

lost confident?
start over again?
understand what i 'need' to do?
forget every single negative matters?
放手？
坚持?

friend

in the afternoon, had a great talk with my friend who is studying at manchester. although we didn't meet for a year, but we still can talk as much as we can :D
for some friends, although i didn't meet them for long time, but we don't have the same topic to talk about, what i can describe?? no chemistry between us? haha... being friend is all about 缘分. :D I will keep in touch with each friend of mine :D cheers! :D

sunrise

such a long time i didn't hear this song, it's from norah jones. It is a light jazz, lovely song. it inspires me! sunrise, which means a brand new day! new day new target!

within this month, I was too emotional... couldn't control my mind sometimes, and i need to cool down myself, and release tension! I'm sorry to some of my friends, because of my immature I might treat you guys badly. Really sorry about this

seriously, i really need to plan what i 'need' to do, and not to do what i 'like'! this is what i'm doing now, decline invitation to hang out with friends, yamcha.. just to focus what i 'need' to do!

and somehow, i manage myself to force myself to do something in one shot... and not to repeat the same things, need to understand 'what am i doing NOW'. don't get blur girl!

change?

what did i 'change' within these few years?

1. getting fat!

2. being strong and independent

3. not afraid of voicing out!! it's my right to fight for it!

4. i think more before i do anything... think more and don't talk more.

5. Time management is better... :) but need to improve more and more... :D


do what i need to do... focus! really concentrate, and don't bother anything else! but still i won't let them to turn me down!

cheers! :D

2 years ago, i did a decision to extend my study and i did manage to accomplish my final in this year. Looking back, i proud to myself for struggling in these two years and I need to begin my instrument study from ZERO!! Right now, what i am facing now.. is how to overcome my study mood... Am i strong enough to face it? or i can gamble it, should try to the other place? can i control my emotion and feeling?

after had a serious discussion with lecturers, I found my way... what i can do right now, don't border anymore... do it.. and get away! of course as soon as possible!

i don't want just a 'paper' , i want a valuable 'paper' and it'll help on my career and i enjoy my studies! right now, i'm not enjoying my studies anymore, i need to find out WHY?

未来？

刚刚与几位老师讨论了我的不满及不安。不安是因为我对于课程的疑问及无奈，不满是对于上课的意念已经不在了！

在这几个星期，依然若无其事地去上课，没有过问任何的事情，只是麻木地‘上课’，我对于小考都不在乎，这不是我，一直以来，我都非常注重这些事件，不曾让自己有机会错过任何能获取好成绩的机会，但现在的我，已经没有念书的意念了，这是为什么？是我对他们已经完全失望了，还是我的想太多呢？

其实，我是有答案，只是我不敢去面对。
面对是一种痛苦的事情，虽然如此，我必须面对，我会作出最好的选择，我会 努力的，不会放弃！

颓废？

自从假期后，我感觉我冲劲已经不在了，连我的老师也这么认为！
这到底是为什么？是我的问题？是环境的问题？还是我应该走了呢离开这不平静的地方呢? 还是我该留下来在观察呢?

我是时候要休息了!我不应该再这么操劳!!应该学会放手!!说是非常简单,但我能做到吗?

lazy bump!

no mood? = lazy?

seriously i'm don't have mood in these few days... i don't know why, i'm TOO MOODY and EMOTIONAL! why?

Actually i know what is the reason, i just don't want to face it :( but... I NEED TO FACE IT!!!!

a week!

What i did within these few days?

Mon : Had violin lesson, luckily i did well on my RH, but my intonation was worst! Later on had pipa class, kinda did well in the class :D chat lots with my teacher too.. Had a great day! :D

Tues: had classes in the morning till afternoon 4pm, right after that had composition class :D after the class had a great chat with my teacher too :D haha... Chat for two days!!! :D

Wed: had presentation in the morning, overall went well :D Good job to all my partners and friends :D after that, watched a movie, 意外. this is sort of thriller movie, although the story is simple but it's kinda scary!! :D hahaha... but it made me think a lot about humanity

Today, work and study :D

Hope everything goes well...

GREAT NEWS!!!!

I love great news... :D

I GOT MY VIOLIN EXAM RESULT!!! got merit...I would like to thank to my teacher, mr azlan and my accompaniment teacher, mr. fairuz for their teaching and helps!!! really appreciate!

Actually i didn't have much confident on this exam, actually i didn't prepare well and didn't have much time on my preparation, really struggle and nervous before the exam!!! But I'm glad, i did TWO main examinations, one is my PETA (final) recital, and my violin exam!!! :D GREAT NEWS!!!!

I will work hard and pay MORE MORE MORE concentration on my study!!! :D

tomorrow

I've 2 important classes tomorrow!!! In the morning, i will have violin class... I hope everything goes well! And I hope what I practiced within these few days can improve my technical skills!! :D 加油!

after the class, i need to go to college for another instrumental class! I hope the same thing on my pipa class. Worry too! :D

I put efforts and concentrations on these two dearest babies!!!! :D Love them very much!!!

TOMORROW IS MY DAY!!! GREAT DAY!!! :D